Discourse at work.

Not feeling it. Discourse at work.

a few weeks back my mgr tells me that financially there's no where for me to go in my current position. the person whose 15 years more junior than me could make more money here because there's room for growth for her so basically I should look for another job. He says this "as my FRIEND". We are not friends, he is my mgr that's all.

Then he finds out from the stupid jr girl that she has no interest in doing this type if work. (Uhhh okkkk... Why would you tell your mgr that???) So now he calls me into his office and tells me to post her job because shes going to leave the company. He said she didn't get the raise she wanted and could make more money someplace else. No shit Sherlock??? He also reiterated that he has 'pull' in other depts. so I should consider looking. What the fuck?!?

I have been looking for a new job for YEARS! Seriously. Why can't I seem to get out if here? U fucking hate going in there and pretending to care when THAT is the type if person I have to deal with.

Deceitful. Sneaky. A liar. Worthless.

On this day monday, October 8, 2012, I have decided that I WILL get a new job. I better job. A better paying job. A job closer to home. Done!

Bachelorette

This weekend I'm having a small bachelorette for a friend, its basically a girls night at my house. It's just 3 of us me, friend1(bride) and friend2. I don't think F1 has any friends but us so...

F2and I are more excited than F1 is. I'm thinking it may be a little lame because F2 and i can drink basically drink-for-drink and can eat. F1 doesn't really drink or ever get drunk and eats only until she's full. That auta b good :|

I'm sure it will be fun and relaxing but just wish F1 was more excited.

Update: lame. F1 has one glass of wine and ate some hummus. That's it. She stayed for a few hours but left by midnight.

F2 and I made queso, artichoke dip, Brie and crackers, pâté, stuffed mushrooms and drank 3 bottles of wine. That's how girls night is done!!!

life

I had a phone iview today. I really want this job. The role is very diverse and I love that; The company is currently private but may go public eventually, like most do.; I am truly just sick and tired of my current role and the management I have to work with; It is exhausting trying to read between the lines of what they say while covering your ass all the time.

My manager claims he's "my friend" :o|; I don't consider him my friend, never have; The fact that we get along reasonably well means nothing; I would be horrified if I saw him in the street say at a festival or something; Don't get me wrong, I can identify my friends pretty easily; I am friends with former managers--actual friends; We see each other socially, mostly one-on-one for dinner or drinks...have even gone away together; Those are friends, not someone I would cringe and avoid if I saw them outside of the walls of where I work; Anyways, one of my colleagues (and friends) stupidly expressed interest in another field and now I am tasked with posting her job unbeknownst to her; It is so ... just ... disgusting feeling I can't stand it; I feel dirty just knowing that I have to do this.

I am praying to God that I have not gotten the other jobs I have applied for because I was meant for this job; I have been secretly looking for 2 1/2 years...2 1/2 years!!!!; This position is very diverse in the responsibilities of it, the department is pretty small compared to where I currently am and I would work pretty independently, which I rather enjoy and am used to.

So here it is Universe (God) Please, please bless me with a new job doing what I love to do closer to home so I don't have to drive so far..

Thank you.