Frank

Having Frank was really hard. Harder than I ever thought it would be. I figured I walk, feed and care for a dog already, what's the big deal adding another dog to that routine?? Well it's a huge deal. Huge.

First of all he is untrained. I run my house with strict rules that have been developed and honed through years of learning to cope with Diamond's separation anxiety. The last thing I need is a dog to come in and fuck with our dynamic.

Frank did. He was over excited over anything we did. If I got up, he got up. If I walk down the hall, he was on my tail. He was constantly pushing his way on front of Diamond even to the point where she tumbled down the stairs because he had to be the first one out the door.

It got to be too much for me. I was constantly trying to train him and Diamond was depressed and losing fur. It was sooo stressful.

I ended up sending him to rocket dog. He's a rocket dog after all. I needed a break shoot! I am going to consider fostering an older dog more like Diamond so they get along better. Diamond couldn't stand Frank.

If any one out there reads my blog (I doubt it) please consider giving that big dope a good life. Like i said he's sweet just rough around the edges.

Frank

So you know how I told you my friend Susan died? Luckily I got her dog Frank out of the pound today. Frank is a male German shepherd. He's huge and very sweet. I am going to foster him until the foster place, Rocket Dog, can get him a forever home or at least a more permanent foster home. I hope that i will be able to come get him on occasion for a walk and sleepover. He is really sweet but I cannot afford to keep him. He has health issues.

I hope it all works out for him and he gets a great new family with tons of space.

Loss

The past few days have been a whirlwind.

I have a friend named Susan who has been there for me and diamond since the beginning. When diamond couldn't stay home alone, Susan took her in. When I has surgery, Susan walked her for me. If I needed a $20 to make it to payday, Susan was there for me. We'd talk and talk and laugh and share tons of stories and just...we were friends. I saw her almost every weekend and spoke with her several times a week. I loved this wacky woman.

Right when we first met about 6 years ago she took her blind brother in to live with her in her one bedroom apartment. He was in no way handicapped. He is an accomplished scientist. An accomplished scientist who lay down in her bed for Literally YEARS. He practically rotted in that bed. When he had manic episodes he would be violent and abusive.

This went on for years and years. Just last week he went manic again and she had to throw him out. He went to LA and began calling her constantly. Harassing her, threatening her, stressing her out until finally she lay down and never woke up again.

This was my friend. One of my closest friends and bestest. A friend who knows stuff about me that no one else knows.

I miss her so much. I'm so sad she died like she did - alone. I hope she is finally at peace.

Diamond and I love you my friend, rest in peace.

Interviewing

I have been on a ridiculous amount if interviews. Most recently I interviews at a law firm, the hr lady was 18 minutes late meeting with me so I cut her out of the interview. I was livid. I met with the paralegal manager and he was nice but ya no.

Then I iviewed with this total ass who said things like "if I'm angry, you'll know it" and "if I don't get someone by thanksgiving in going to slit my wrists". Ok would you work for someone like that?? I was pretty much done after that. But then here comes a health care company and Facebook. Ahhhh Facebook... ???

So many interviews so few offers

Chill in the city

There's a chill in the city today. It was one if those glorious November days that's sunny and crisp. I worked from home and did a little Target shopping at lunchtime, which was more retail therapy than out of necessity.

I'm snuggled on the vouch under a blanket with my babygirl watching The Family Man.

Looking forward to the future. :)

Irritated

I feel so irritated today. I just want to punch someone in the face!

Can't wait to get my ass home.

Upside? Had soup today.

Churn

The churn has finally begun at work. The least likely guy to leave gave notice. My manager doesn't like him anyway but it started the churn. Most of us are actively looking to bail. There's just no money to be made there.

As I was getting ready to leave I saw another guys printout and the last line was "thank you for your consideration." 'Nuff said.

Iview

Another one bites the dust! Well, not just one...I had two phone iviews this week. The first was for a hospital. Um, no. Can't stand structure or sickness. I don't know anything about the industry, nor do I wish to learn about it.
The HR woman who I spoke with asked me questions about contracts. I negotiate contracts now but her questions were strange in that she wanted technical info and she was a recruiter for a hospital, how would she know if I'm telling the truth?

Regardless, the being there from 8-5 was a deal breaker for me. I'm fluid, I like flexibility.

The second was for a company that does pricing. I think that means that it will evaluate your business or product and value it competitively to ensure the company makes money. Anyway, I spoke w the guy who the position reports to and HELL NO. He came across as majorly unhappy and overworked and inflexible and mean. I am so thankful he did so I can write him off.

On the upside shortly before my second bad iview this week Facebook called to set up an iview next week!!! Woot!

Discourse at work.

Not feeling it. Discourse at work.

a few weeks back my mgr tells me that financially there's no where for me to go in my current position. the person whose 15 years more junior than me could make more money here because there's room for growth for her so basically I should look for another job. He says this "as my FRIEND". We are not friends, he is my mgr that's all.

Then he finds out from the stupid jr girl that she has no interest in doing this type if work. (Uhhh okkkk... Why would you tell your mgr that???) So now he calls me into his office and tells me to post her job because shes going to leave the company. He said she didn't get the raise she wanted and could make more money someplace else. No shit Sherlock??? He also reiterated that he has 'pull' in other depts. so I should consider looking. What the fuck?!?

I have been looking for a new job for YEARS! Seriously. Why can't I seem to get out if here? U fucking hate going in there and pretending to care when THAT is the type if person I have to deal with.

Deceitful. Sneaky. A liar. Worthless.

On this day monday, October 8, 2012, I have decided that I WILL get a new job. I better job. A better paying job. A job closer to home. Done!

Bachelorette

This weekend I'm having a small bachelorette for a friend, its basically a girls night at my house. It's just 3 of us me, friend1(bride) and friend2. I don't think F1 has any friends but us so...

F2and I are more excited than F1 is. I'm thinking it may be a little lame because F2 and i can drink basically drink-for-drink and can eat. F1 doesn't really drink or ever get drunk and eats only until she's full. That auta b good :|

I'm sure it will be fun and relaxing but just wish F1 was more excited.

Update: lame. F1 has one glass of wine and ate some hummus. That's it. She stayed for a few hours but left by midnight.

F2 and I made queso, artichoke dip, Brie and crackers, pâté, stuffed mushrooms and drank 3 bottles of wine. That's how girls night is done!!!

life

I had a phone iview today. I really want this job. The role is very diverse and I love that; The company is currently private but may go public eventually, like most do.; I am truly just sick and tired of my current role and the management I have to work with; It is exhausting trying to read between the lines of what they say while covering your ass all the time.

My manager claims he's "my friend" :o|; I don't consider him my friend, never have; The fact that we get along reasonably well means nothing; I would be horrified if I saw him in the street say at a festival or something; Don't get me wrong, I can identify my friends pretty easily; I am friends with former managers--actual friends; We see each other socially, mostly one-on-one for dinner or drinks...have even gone away together; Those are friends, not someone I would cringe and avoid if I saw them outside of the walls of where I work; Anyways, one of my colleagues (and friends) stupidly expressed interest in another field and now I am tasked with posting her job unbeknownst to her; It is so ... just ... disgusting feeling I can't stand it; I feel dirty just knowing that I have to do this.

I am praying to God that I have not gotten the other jobs I have applied for because I was meant for this job; I have been secretly looking for 2 1/2 years...2 1/2 years!!!!; This position is very diverse in the responsibilities of it, the department is pretty small compared to where I currently am and I would work pretty independently, which I rather enjoy and am used to.

So here it is Universe (God) Please, please bless me with a new job doing what I love to do closer to home so I don't have to drive so far..

Thank you.

Happiness and Joy

Remaining positive isn't always easy but I am faking it until I make it

Iview

Been interviewing for awhile now. Got to the point of providing my salary requirement to one company but haven't heard back yet. Had 2phone iviews this week and seriously need a new gig. I would love to make more money and do something more intellectual. We'll see...

Chicken soup

Made a slamming chicken soup yesterday, feel like eating it for breakfast :)

Just woke up and I am so sleepy i want to go back to sleep, but my tummy is growling.

Today I'll take Ms. Thing out for her first official walk since before surgery hope all goes well.

Going to fen shui my room because right now it screams I don't want a bf, I need to make room for a man in here.

Ok Nuf, need coffee

Hey Universe!

I am claiming that job! At the salary I need!! With stock options!!! So listen up! Thank you Lord ;)

Staples and other stuff

Taking baby girl to the vet tomorrow to get her staples out.

Had a phone iview today with a bank. Sounds promising :). They told me what to expect for next steps which is always a good sign.

Got a request for my salary requirements from a company I iviewed with last week. I am thinking that it's a very good sign :) yay!!!

9-11

So today is 11 years after the World Trade Centers fell. It has been a sad day for me, sadder than last year for some reason. A lot has changed in 11 years. I remember this day for a lot of reasons.

At the time I lived in LA with my fiancé. He woke me up to watch the news and i remember being on the phone with my sister watching as the second tower fell. I couldn't breath or speak.

Eventually I got dressed and went to work. I remember sitting at my desk and calling my Mother who was crying when she told me my aunt, Sonia Mercedes Puopolo Morales, was in one of the planes. I didn't know that the plane I watched hit the second tower had my aunt in it.

I remember leaving work and going home. I somehow was put in contact with my cousin in LA and I went to his house. His mother was in that plane. We cried and cried and waited for word. Eventually a motor home was rented and stocked to take us back home to be with our families.

I remember i had left my license at my apt in my haste to get to my cousin and called my fiancé to bring it to me so we could leave. He wouldn't. He tried to forbid me from going to my family in our hour of need. What a dick.
He fought me the whole time I was gone. What a dick.

I didn't care, my family was more important than him so of course i went. We had drivers driving round the clock only stopping for gas until we got to Boston. My cousin was going to his family so he dropped me at a rest area and my other cousins picked me up. I haven't seen or spoken to my cousin since he dropped me off.

Every anniversary we remember. We remember different things i am sure but for me, I remember what a positive woman my aunt was. She helped me immensely when I was in college and encouraged me to fulfill my dreams. I don't think I wound be where I am today without her help.

Tonight I think of her. Pray for her. Pray for her children and hope the country heals.

Rest in Peace Titi Sonia, I will never forget.

Getting better and other stuff

Diamond is getting stronger everyday :). So thankful!

I had a job interview last week. I think the job would be interesting and lucrative but I don't know why I feel so nah about it. I need a new job because I'm seriously underpaid and I need to pay my friend back for paying for Diamonds surgery. Sigh.

Online dating

Ok so I'm looking for a bf. I am mid 40s and rarely go out bar hopping, i work for a software conglomerate filled with fugly, hairy geeks so I decided to try online dating.

Now I ask you, what possesses a man--a grown man, to take a picture of his erect junk and text it to someone he does not know and has never met??!? What the hell is WRONG with them?!???!

I have shared these pics with my friends and have contemplated writing a (very short) book about it... Maybe I will

Watching Julie and Julia

Love this movie :)

First time blogging

I thought I'd write a blog because I have stuff to say and I always thought I'd be a writer...well that and an attorney and a judge...  its all random stuff just whatever comes to me


The past few days have been incredibly stressful.  I have a dog named Diamond who I've had for about seven years.  I adopted Diamond in Clearwater, Florida when I lived there.  Anyway, a few months ago I went on vacation and left Diamond with a friend.  When I got back she had a cough.  I thought maybe she had inhaled some fur or something because my friend has a German Shephard which according to my brother who has always had German Shephards, they are fur factories.  The cough persisted and then one day I was giving her hugs and she coughed a bloody snot on my sweater (I got rid of it after that-the sweater, not the dog).  Now that concerned me.  I gave it time, a few more months then when it became clear that the cough wasn't going away I brought her to the vet.  The vet took xrays which showed a mass on her lungs.  They prescribed a bunch of meds but the cough didn't go away.  We then sent the xrays to a radiologist who said that it looked like the mass was getting bigger.  So I went to a surgeon in SF and she suggested surgery.  I asked my friend to come with me, the one who watches Diamond when I go on vacation, because when the doctors say words like "tumor" or "cancer" I don't hear anything else.  So my friend was going to be my ears and listen and ask questions I don't think of.  She happily agreed. 

So the very next day we delivered Diamond to the surgeon who said that she'd walk out of there the next day.  I was scared shitless.  I need my baby.  We call this dog the Million Dollar Dog because over the years she has gone through windows, was allergic to food and grass and air, I had to put her in daycare for an entire year at 100 a week! I've paid for Rekki, a doggie psychologist, cooked her food from scratch, bought her prescription food, I mean she was on sale when i bought her at the humane society but that was the last break I got.  Anyways, whenever a doctor says you'll "walk" within any specific time, don't believe it.  she was supposed to walk out the next day.  did she? no.  like 6 days later! but finally I have her home and she's doing well although being a bit of a wuss.